Time to get busy and update!

Just so that you know if you ever drop in- I've got lots of copy/pasting to do to catch up my blog. LOTS! So much as happend over the course of the past few months and I've got a lot written I just need to get it on here!

My soul has been telling me to write stuff down, memories, pictures, drawing. I just feel I have got to get this story out of ME and onto paper. I honestly don't know where to start. Milestones come and I have the greatest of intentions...only to realize the time has come and I'm behind again. I use to be sooooo organized. where has that part of my brain gone? teehee

So: to catch up in brief and to upload,
October/November....gee...SO many birthdays! So many activities! My trip to SanDiego and driving cross country with Bret. (those notes are long!) and pictures are many!! Bret arriving home to see family and friends before deploying yet again to somewhere in Afghanistan. My NOT going to the airport this trip to see him off. There were so many fun days we had. My unfortunate ER event with my back, again. Preparing for the "fill the mailbag" event for Bret for his 22nd b'day celebration overseas. My sister and George both turned 50. I dont think I 've even come to terms with that yet... :p that just isn't imaginable!
Facebook remark that I made that taught me a lesson...and I'd do it again, yet differently.
This overwhelming urge to talk to people about Jesus. I brought it up with Meleah on the phone yesterday. It's in me and as much as I want it to come out and do let it.....I'm so scared. Not prepared mostly.
Started the GriefStudy group at church and I think this is going to help me deal with more than even I know at this moment. God has always planned ahead with me and I'm trying to keep an open heart and mind. He didnt promise us an easy journey but He did indeed promise a SAFE ARRIVAL!
Okay, well....
tears are falling like always when I get on this blog. What is it? What am I trying to say? Who would listen? Who would really?? Do I have a gift of expressing myself or am I just hoping it will leap forth from these keystrokes?? hummmmm
oh...and Lord....i'm going on single now for 3 years. Can we talk about this? I really want, well, you know my heart and what I long for. It's always been known that God and I handle everything with humor...so....would the man that thinks he can handle me...lol.... I'm just kidding. "♫ ... so find yourself somebody to loveeeee... ♫" who sang that Perry Como or Frank Sinatra?
Much love to you if you are reading this.
know that I love you. know that if you've been directed to hit my one little "blog" url than you are meant to be here. (poor thang)
Jesus cared enough to hold his hands out and die for you and me. Let me open my arms wide enough to say and ask..."What can I do for you?"
"What can I pray for you?" Let me be your friend and your sister in Christ.
Muuacccchhh, bri

running free

the river ran
through
the bridge
tough as stone
my love is flowing
for you
alone

...thoughts...

Sometimes
I
sit...
Surrounded
by rock
water
and clover
and
only
think
about
YOU.

Earths own tales

Today found me in a romatic mood I guess you could say.

The earlier part of the morning had me driving down new roads never explored. Barns, cornfields, horses, long trailing white fences, the river-winding as the bridges told of old stories, old romances, giggles and gallops from the carriages.

Where do we store and log these tales?

Hillsides that were once covered with farmhouses and children playing in the fields.
The ponds- dried, that once held as much laughter as rainwater.
Monumental trees with decades of rings to show for its life.
The storms these trees have endured...the water the creeks have had overflowing and cascading over the rocks...generations of clover and vines...honeysuckel filling the air with a sweet essence for centuries....

How, where, when will the earth be able to tell us its story?

just some thoughts that are wandering in my mind and soul today...
as i explore...
and
fall in love
with
nature
all over again.

GoodMorning YOU!

The sunshine is brilliant this morning...I mean just stunning! My veins are pumping with energy just feeling it's warmth! For the past two days at 4am my eyes have just "popped" open and my body has felt like it needs to jump up and be creative! Crazy coming from me...the one who seems to be frail in physical strength! lol My body certainly tells me of better and younger more youthful days....lol Not that I am old mind you!!

Love, Love, Love...
How do I tell you what is in my heart? How do I convey to you the feeling that is in me? Like a scratch and sniff sticker...you can relate? You may scratch and sense the aroma, but, do you get it? Does it flow in your veins? The fruity essence making you feel giddy or the nutmeg...bringing forth your nostalgic side?

My heart feels so big...overflowing somedays, really. Like it needs to expand. It's funny...I can actually feel this little flutter sometimes and I think it must be bursting forth at it's seams! As I travel in my mind back to the love and loves I've experienced...I realize what each relationship has taught me. The capacity to love is never fullfilled, or is it? Think back on old friends, past relationships, family members, co-workers....we give a small bit of ourself everyday in some fashion to all these people...what are we giving them? What are we being blessed with from them? How are they enriched by me today? How did they enrich me?

What is it I am learning in this life?
Where will it take me and where will I travel with it?
What does a soul need to travel?
Wheels?
Feet?
Faith...
Yes, Faith
What lesson can I learn today?
What difference can I make for you today?
just remember
i smiled
i laughed!

Do you see Jesus?

Anybody that knows me understands my passion for photography! Yes, I've been known to take pictures while driving instead of chatting on my cellphone. Crazy, of course...but amazing!
So, yesterday Alyssa and I had been to Owensboro, KY to see her Memaw. She was not expected to make it though the night. When we left the hospital Alyssa was exhausted. Sometimes there simply are no words and the silence says it all, ya know. I'd driven for about 70 miles checking out the clouds and picking out formations that looked like bunnies or butterflies. There was the most spectacular set of ominous clouds in the sky...all SO different. I had my camera in the back seat and asked Lyssa to grab it. She turned it on and the sound of the shutter made one think a professional photographer was in the passengers seat!! She then began reviewing them when she was speechless. Her mouth was wide open and the pictue above is what she had captured.
Jesus was there...comforting her...watching over us...reminding us that he stretched out his arms and carried our sins for us. The love flowing from His hands and from His brow. What an incredible sense of peace it brought to both of us.
God does speak to each of us in His own way. A way in which only you as an individual will understand. Open your eyes and allow your heart to take it all in!! His unconditional love is there, arms wide open....all you have to do is ask.

raindrops from heaven fill my heart

The rain today is slow and steady. The kind you want to take a midday nap with. The sky a slight grey and hazy blue. Its apperance reflects the way my heart is feeling. I cannot deny that my soul is always full of joy even in the deepest hours of despair, yet, human as I am that joy is sometimes buried below the surface.
I've come to understand the true meaning of "Agape". So, why would that make me feel sad you ask... When a persons soul has adopted the true meaning of unconditional Love you want to share it with everyone! I honestly cannot keep it inside me although today I became increasingly aware that some of the closest people to my heart, "Just don't get it." Now mind you I'm not judging in anyway...I just want to share this explosive, contagious, infectious, multiplying feeling that is growing deep within me. Maybe that is why I find my "WEEDS" are so luminating.
A man in the store said to me today, "You are just a bright ray of sunshine!" What a compliment I thought...so of course I said THANK YOU! He then asked while chuckling, "Did you win the lottery?" My answer was not thought out so I quickly responded with, "Nope, I was given something much bigger!" He looked with worried brows waiting for me to continue...I blurted out, "I know I'm going to Heaven!!!" He then rolled his eyes and walked away. Friends...I was dumb-founded, heart-broken and just so confused all in a split second. Not often am I at a loss for words, but, I felt I had failed! I came across to bold, to vivacious for what makes me so joyfull. I just cannot express how a beautiful compliment stopped me in my tracks. I missed an opportunity.
However, after I woke to the same raindrops that engaged my nap, I heard a voice whisper, "you planted a seed!" I pray I did. I pray too that God can calm me down if thats what I need...lol! I just felt I had failed at something I'm soooo passionate about as odd as that may sound.
So my heart is full of those raindrops, yet they are streaming down my face.

This is my own thought to ponder tomorrow:
Even the whitest of snows have dirt beneath them!

May my day shine more radiantly tomorrow!
Goodnight my loves!

Seeing Clearly

Funny...I sit at the keyboard, all these words inside my head and my fingers just don't type the 90wpm they use too! I think I need one of those voice recorder devices!! Yesterday after a much needed trip to the Opthamologist I learned my vision is really fading quickly, especially during a relapse with my Multiple Sclerosis. Yet...in my life things are soooo incredibly clear! How do I say this...I'm still amazed when God works everything out...but I'm more amazed to see how he brings it all together! Like a puzzle with all the same shape pieces. My road is not all paved out or even carpeted...it's still the same ole' gravel road that kicks up dirt...but the cloud it leaves as I travel it, is beautiful. The joy in my spirit, in the inner soul of me is overflowing with uplifting words and I simple can't explain them....El Shaddai, El Shaddai....May you be able to grasp just some of this and take with you a piece of true happiness from God to me and from me to you today. How blessed I am to know my Heavenly Father!

Life

Welp, today is just your average Thursday in June...right?

Naw...

Today is a spectacular, sun-filled, beautiful day that the Lord gave us to celebrate! I know that no matter what today may bring that it is NOTHING that God and I can't handle together!

My morning started with my precious Alyssa standing above me saying,

"Get up...Get up...it's time to go walking!"

What a remarkable way to start a day with one of you childrens face shinning brightly above you!

God is SO good and gracious to me!!

We walked and talked for 2 miles and inhaled the scents of nature around us. Then home to cut a fresh pineapple and make protein smoothies. I'm so thankful I have this time to spend with Lyss before she heads off to WKU for college this fall!

So....now.....on with my day!

I love you all!!

P.S. Jesus....Thank you for loving me today!

Bri♥

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